KARMA.. i love it. i hate it.
so i just got my period yesterday and man was i a bitch. and i think im still one.. lately! hahah well i have my ups and downs but what woman doesnt nor have the right to? hahaha.
well, my day went fairly alright. i had an AWESOME NIGHT it was fun, its been a while and i must admit it was good. hahahah and then i went back home and i COULDNT GO TO SLEEP. i literally was up just looking up at the ceiling until 230AM. it was a draaaag. and i finally end up going to bed and i had to wake up at 430AM. ACTUALLY, i ended up waking up a LITTLE BIT EARLIER than 430AM which pissed me off slightly because i couldnt understand how i COULDNT GO TO SLEEP but yet WAKE UP EARLIER than what was planned! ODD. i get ready and wake up my brother. we head out and start RUNNING.. you see.. im trying to loose weight again. i remember how good i used to look. how hot i felt. how proud i was to fit into size 0 pants. it was an amazing feeling and yet ive lost it all and i know i can get myself back there. but i must say, it is hard! so anyways, we head out on our hour long workout. and we ran down and up the valencia parkway hill near our house and then did some mental strength workouts. kinda the ones where you keep telling yourself to hold it for a longer time that you really think you cant.. a bitch i tell you. even worse to feel that way when your raggin it. but it was all for the best. got home at 530AM like planned. took a shower and got ready for schooooool. and then....
went to schooool. first period - changed seats. ehh, sorta was placed in an area not too comforting nor exciting nor fun. so i had a quiet morning. which i really dont like. i hate being quiet or not feeling like i can be alive. because i do like mornings. especially when your in a math class being alive is the best way to stay awake! hahah.
second period - walked to second with ANTHONY. hahah loser! finally waited for me. sorta sweeeet. but homeboy didnt even like "walk" with me. loser! its ok. next time. youre getting there though! anyways, had fun singing! it was quiet intense. haha i was excited to sing the entire song that we just finished learning. haha i thought it was pretty good. hahah but we still have a LOT of work to do!
third period - boring as fuck. enough said. i hate that class. its not nor ever will be for the rest of the year .. FUN. i hate it. it totally brings my day and spirits down. what another draaaag. anyways..
fourth period - had a test. ok not too bad. and thats it. haha. lunch - ehh senior exec. meeting. not much going on. just working on the floats. and i gave cammille the quick lil THANKSGIVING POTLUCK REUNION we're throwing again for FAMILY 5. it was ok. hahah nothing special i thought. but at least its a START. haha we havent had much time lately to work together on planning. but yeah i think its gonna be fun! then
fifth period - JOSH visited again! except this time he didnt spend the entire period talking and laughing with me. he did all that with libertie. but whatever! i still had quite some fun with andrew and tasha! they are tooo funny. and they laugh at my jokes too. and tasha is so pretty. haha its so funny. shes really a coool girl. never really thought about it because i didnt talk to her much before. but yeah shes awesome.
sixth period - BOSS.. i love it! haha its what i am. its what i should be. hahah i like being and feeling like the teacher in that class. i want to become one anyways.. its good practice. and i think my choices and decisions do affect everyone. told some jokes with mr. gough and laughed for quite a while. anyways, elisa stopped by though because she was finally getting a chance to play for the season of field hockey. so she came to get my camera. then afterschool i had a coooool talk with mr. gough. hes awesome. hes a good mentor and a really great friend! whaaaat can i say?! hahahah. had talks about religion - budhists, catholics, etc; karma; life after death; surfing - our great passion; the class and discuss any changes or improvements or necessities; schoool; etc. it was good. it was fun.
afterschool - was on my way to elisa's field hockey game to only understand that she was no longer getting ready to play because the other school didnt bring their JV team with them, after i was practically on the field. but its ok. im just bitter that my body kills after such an intense workout in the morning. then on my way to my car rachel called me and just hung out with her for a bit at her house because she lives so close to schooool. looked at yearbooks, gossiped, shittalked, haha it was great! shes a cooool girl. then headed
home - saw my mom behind me. glad that nothing went wrong with my car. i would of been so pissed off if it sucked in front of her. but all is well. hahahah. once i came home i fell straight alseep. i was literally dead and i didnt wake up until 9. can you believe that? hahaha straight 6 hours of sleep. it was awesome. hahahah. but now im not gonna get enough for tonight and plus i have work tomorrow! its ok. its not that bad. uhh got online and mark told me some really funny jokes! hahah HES SOOO COOOOOOOL. i love jokes. they keep the world positive and happy. i love it. hahahahahah they were halarious! hahahah. but whenever i tell someone a joke.. they only other joke they can throw back at me .. SEEMS TO BE RACIST. its like im the only one telling CLEAN 2nd GRADE JOKES. its funny. but love both nonetheless. jokes are jokes and they are MY FAVORITE.
so here i am now.. stuck with my period and this bitchy mood. yet happy one at the same time. ahh who knows. hahaha but uhh, i tried to keep these jokes in my mind because im really unhappy right now. im not sure whyyyyyy. i hate this feeling. first of all, my mom just came back from the hospital again because she was shivering like crazy again and she was peeing blood when she has menopause. so it was odd and scarry. so my dad took her to the hospital again and they just doubled her dosage. whaaat a waste! but im for some reason reallly emotionally scared. i want to cry. even when i was watching tv and i was watching that one "the biggest loser" show - about many obiest people taped to their on going battle to loose weight. it made me sad and elated for all those people who have lost such an enormous amount of weight and to see such improvement made me a lil sappy. hahahaha and then my mom. i didnt really know what was wrong with her the first time but i really was scared and so sad. its been a while when i felt like this. but whatever! ill get over it! i hope.
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